"The Analyst"

[ocelot]

The Analyst

Prepare yourself to meet a girl who can not sleep
Dividing every question 'til the questions are complete
Every twisted tongue she studies everyone
She won't leave any stone unturned the night is oh so young

Oh oh she's traveling back in time
Questioning every line that someone said
Oh oh she's trying to understand

Free her mind she's always the analyst
Silent space the culprit the catalyst
Trying to make sense of her life
Digging around in the dirt she's a slave to the work
She's always the analyst

Can you be sure we haven't met see the eyes they don't forget
They wander through the passage-ways that tease a restless mind
Can't afford to slip the picture's gotta fit
Her world's a photograph that gets dissected bit by bit

Oh oh she's traveling back in time
Questioning every line that someone said
Oh oh she's trying to understand

Free her mind she's always the analyst
Silent space the culprit the catalyst
Trying to make sense of her life
Digging around in the dirt she's a slave to the work
She's always the analyst

Re-living the mistake she's made not a moment for the curious girl

Free her mind she's always the analyst
Silent space the culprit the catalyst
Trying to make sense of this life
Digging around breaking it down
Neurotic thoughts
Burning the ground
Every sight every sound
She's always the analyst

[ocelot]

I'm great at analysing everything till I break myself over it all. I live my mistakes over and over trying it figure out what I could have done differently. I question almost everything that people say, trying to read between the lines. I can relate to this song alot.

[shavonfan]

I like the song a lot. Thank you for your personal comments. I'm curious, why is it that you feel the need to be such an anylist? I mean, why live your mistakes over and over in hopes of what could have been done differently? What is it that you think you are going to find "between the lines" in what people say? Just wondering.

[ocelot]

I don't know why I do it, but I'm trying to stop. I know it's useless living your mistakes over and over again. When I really think about it I don't think there's anything to find between the lines. I think it probably goes back to rejections and hurts I had as a child. I'm currently trying to sort them out, I've been like that as long as I can remember and it's better now than it ever has been before.

[shavonfan]

Okay, well, thank you for sharing that. I in no way am an expert on anything, and I'm not trying to preach. But if I can only say one thing, it is this. It's okay that you are like that. It's all part of your makeup, and who you are. Some of it is how you have developed through the years and the things you have been through. Some of it is just simply who you are. But there is no need to apologize for it. And you don't need to beat yourself up trying to change, either. Those qualities about yourself are not good or bad, they are what they are. It's what you make of them that is all the difference. So, recognize them for what they are, and channel them in ways that will be positive to you and others. I hope I am not interfering in your life.

[ocelot]

No, I don't feel you are interfering. The thing is part of it hurts me more than it should and that part I am trying to change. I'm trying to make it a positive, not a negative.

[shavonfan]

Oh, I see. Well, I will pray for you that you find what you are looking for.

[ocelot]

Thank you very much. I really appreciate that.